pSYChO

newish:

"Dude!  I'm like a back-up Squish now!  Not only do I not have money so I'm gonna eat before [we go out to dinner], I'm also on anti-depressants and ADHD medication!  Now all I need is bi-polar, and a penchant for cute guys with puppy dogs."

-anonymous

"yeah and then be that crazy insane genious that turns into this mad killer with letter bombs like ted kazinski, and I can see you on the news and say THAT'S SQUISH!...and then i can call that america's most wanted guy and say 'I know who he is and i'm not telling cause squishy people need to be insane and smart and killers and HA!' "

-kevie

"Actually i'd be a psycho bum those are more fun"

"All bipolar people are serial killers just waiting to happen.  Its true.  I read it in this book I wrote."

-Sam

"I'M the primary doctor, and YOU'RE the second opinion. if i don't LIKE your second opinion, i'll go to someone else." -a bipolar to his new doctor

"i have some good news and some bad news for you.  the bad news is, i have a serial killer imaginary friend and you're next on his list.  the good news is, i don't believe in him anymore.  though i feel kinda sorry for his first 14 victims.  come to think of it, the police never did pick up his trail.  it just kind of vanished when i stopped believing in him at age 8." -squish

"you are on crack." -josh r

"i'm on better than crack.  i'm on bipolar." -squish

"How do I get me some of that bipolar shit?"

-scott

me: "they're crying."
becca: "who?"
me: "bilbe and bebe, my imaginary friends."
becca: "okay, you can go back to bipolar land now..."

"One by one the penguins are stealing my sanity..."
(T-shirt)

"you look like you have more fun with your straight high school friends in these pictures. moreover you looked healthier in high school. you were cuter. i think you need to stop being insane. it'd do wonders for your complexion."
-becca

"I'm not REALLY this stupid; I'm bipolar."
-post on a bipolar forum

"Support mental health or i'll kill you."
-tagline

"about this raging stuff... was anyone else freaked out by hannibal? i.e. begining to relate to him?"
"Actually, I sorta figured Hannibal to be a rank amateur."
-exchange on a bipolar message board

"When I first got here I kept hearing about this Squish guy and I figured now this must be the head loony around here and I better get on his good side."
-dale71, posted in a delphi bipolar forum

"The people in the town think i'm nuts, they just don't know how right they are."
-jeff settles

"[I was] darting back and forth across the hospital parking lot trying to use up a boundless, restless, manic energy. I was running fast, but slowly going mad....Suddenly a police car pulled up....I could see that the officer had his hand on his gun as he got out of the car. 'What in the hell are you doing running around the parking lot at this hour?' he asked. A not unreasonable question....My colleague, fortunately, was thinking far better than I was...and said, 'We're both on the faculty in the psychiatry department.' The policeman looked at us, smiled, went back to his squad car, and drove away."
-Kay Redfield Jamison, An Unquiet Mind (a book on bipolar)


oldish:

"what a comfort to find out you're losing your mind
when you re-realize that it's not the first time.
burnt the beyond when you learned how to fly
just to learn later on that there isn't a sky..."
-lemonheads

"Plus I never had an insane gay friend before it is pretty cool" - joe

"You have to try to make sure that you won't be insane this summer so that you can hang out with us and have fun and stuff..." --chris nuss

"It is much more comfortable to be mad and know it, than to be sane and have one's doubts." --G. B. Burgin

Squish Says: "Never, Never, NEVER mix existentialism, psycho cybernetics, and negative utilitarian ethics with attention deficit disorder, extreme lack of sleep, and an obsessive compulsive need to understand the nature of reality. Trust me. I did. They put me in a psychiatric ward and released me on medication."

"So much to think about, I think my head is going to explode... I really wish it would. Cause then I'd pick the pieces up and put them all together. And maybe then it'll all make sense...."
--me, written well before this actually happened to me

"well what are the desired effects [of the medications]?" -- Iggy
"for me to stop complaining to people about myself screaming and crying at how miserable i am when my soul gets pulled toward oblivion threatening to throw me into complete insanity. there are other desired affects as well: wealth, super attractiveness, telekinisis, the ability to get freddie prinze jr in bed, possesion of all the kiwi jelly beans in existence, super-elated-happy-squisy-extreme-pleasure, and sudden knowledge of the address of the cute guy in the sprint PCS magazine ad, standing in the orange laundramat. But I have a feeling none of THOSE desired effects will occur." --me

Squish says: "ACT crazy, it's fun. GO crazy, it's even more fun."

Squish says: "The deep dark reccesses of my head... it was a nice place to visit, but I wouldn't want to live there!"

"It's no use - it won't give in - my mind knows I'm its bitch."
--Iggy

"It's weird, I always thought I'd be the first to go." – Sam, about me going crazy

"I think i've been able to diagnose your problem just sitting here-- definite multiple personality disorder. Are you [real name], or are you squish?"
--Scott

....
squish303: when the sign "enter at your own risk" is posted in front of
the entrance to the deepest darkest recesses of your mind, and you already
know that that pathway can ultimately lead to a terrifying abyss that will
threaten to pull your mind into insanity, you do NOT say, under any
conditions, "ah hell let's go in anyway it'll be fun."
LichWriter: hopefully not. but i could see myself saying..."well... what
if i brought a flashlight..."

"next time do NOT allow me to 'give a brief summary' of how i think the entire human population is soon to be wiped out of existence." - Me

"Okay, so now you're insane. It's a minor setback really, you were always a little odd."
-- Sam

Squish, the men in white coats are your friends."
--a phrase that has, tragically, thus far not actually been uttered during these "psycho months" of mine

"Alright let's go around and say our names and our goal for today."
...
"My name is Squish, and my goal for today is to leave."
"Do you have any words of wisdom for us?"
"Um... bork."
"I don't understand."
"It's a swedish dog going 'bark'."
"Can you elaborate on that any further?"
--morning talking circle during stay at psychiatric ward

”They told me I was crazy, but what do cherios know?”
--Sam

kflake wx: what have you been up to squish?
squish303: well, last night i was revisiting the dark recesses of my mind
trying to find answers that will help free me from the pull the abyss has on
me every day of my life for the past two and a half months
kflake wx: did you find any cotton candy there?
squish303: no... but i did find a cool yo-yo
kflake wx: is it glow-in-the-dark?
squish303: if it wasn't glo-in-the-dark i wouldn't have seen it
squish303: it's pretty dark down there, you know
kflake wx: ah...

"Several years ago I said goodbye to my own sanity. But I don't mind at all."
-- Brent Bourgeois